Sweet Jane 61 Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 When my Dad died 2 1/2 years ago from injuries he recieved after falling off a roof, I was lost...I was not ready to lose my Dad. I wrote him this letter and read it at the funeral and then gave it to my Dad to be with him always. I am glad I found my copy...in a strange way it made me smile. Dear Daddy, I can't believe that you are gone, even as I read this it still doesn't seem real to me. From the time I can remember you always told me I was special because you and Mom choose me to be your daughter, and I know that I am the luckiest girl in the world to have been choosen by the two of you. I can't even fathom how much I am going to miss you Daddy, but I will always remember the wonderful childhood you gave me. When I was 5 and we were oyster hunting in Florida and you were so proud that I ate them right out of the shell just like you. The summers in Key West, learning all about the ocean, fishing, diving, and running the boat...I never could tie a good boating knot but you didn't care. As I grew up and made mistakes in my life, you were always there for me, my rock, not judging me, just trying to make it all better. Like when I was little. I am going to miss our birthday, a day we shared and were together on every year. It won't be the same without you Daddy. Something I will miss the most is you knocking at my door saying "Sissy, you home, it's you old Dad to say Hi." I won't let you go Daddy, I never will, I won't say goodbye, I can't, but I will send all my love with you and keep you in my heart forever. I love you, your daughter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
suttie Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 sweet jane that was lovely it tugged at my heart, i lost my mum just a year ago, and it is really hitting me now, i still go to phone her to tell her something, then i remember she is not there anymore to answer it, and i am going to find it really hard this christmas without her a big hug for you suttie xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
invisible_r Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 jane, your letter filled my eyes with tears! when my best friend's dad died last year, i thought my world had collapsed, because all these thoughts were creeping threw my head. my dad had me when he was relatively old, so i always worry about him even if he is fitter than me! because my parents are divorced, i never spent enough time with him. also, because i am me, i never let my parents know that i love them loads. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Foxy Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 Jane that was lovely, very heart-felt and such love. 22 months have passed since my step-dad died and it feels like just last week at times. I hope he knew how much I thought of him, although I didn't show it at all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sweet Jane 61 Posted November 9, 2005 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 Last night was the first time since my Dad passed that I went through the box of things I have from the funeral, the cards, the newspaper clippings, notes from friends and family, and things. It was hard but at the same time something I needed to do. I put the box away and not sure when I will get it out again...maybe when Emily is old enough to understand. It healed me in some ways but do you ever completely heal from a loss....thank you for letting me share this with you all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
invisible_r Posted November 9, 2005 Report Share Posted November 9, 2005 anything that helps jane, i can't imagine how painful it would be to lose a parent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Steel2Velvet Posted November 10, 2005 Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Your heart comes through your writing, Jane. This is a wonderful tribute that warms me to know a daughter thought of her father in this manner. I have a piece that my sister read at my father's funeral last year. I will find and post. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lucky Posted November 10, 2005 Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Jane I couldn't be more touched. Your letter brings back the feelings I had (and still have) when I lost my mom, 5 years ago, and makes me mourn for something I never had with my dad. You're very blessed even though it's hard to imagine that. You have wonderful memories,and feelings to carry with you always. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jenny Posted November 10, 2005 Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Okay....now I have to dry my eyes....Thankfully, I have not lost my parents, and at times I wonder how I'll cope when that day comes. I used to write regularly. I don't so much anymore, but this makes me think that maybe I should. I should write a letter like this to everyone I love and read it to them while they're still alive. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Uncle Joe Posted November 10, 2005 Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Jen, that 's a wonderful idea. Remember to include your daughter. Jane, I purposely waited until this morning to read your post hoping it would give me time to steel myself against the flood of emotion that was sure to come. Didn't work. Very lovely thoughts to pass along to your Dad. Thank you for sharing it with us. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sweet Jane 61 Posted November 10, 2005 Author Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Jenny...writing is such a great release, even if you don't share it with anyone. I have been writing since I was a young teen. I look back at some of those writings and they seem not to make much sense but at the time I wrote them, it helped me. Give it a try again, I recommend everyone to write. And thanks for the lovely comments from everyone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Earth-Angel Posted November 10, 2005 Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Jane, that really was special - thank you for sharing it with us. I know how hard it is when you walk to the phone to call them and remember that no one will be there to pick it up. Sometimes I ask people if I am being stupid or if they are really not on this earth anymore, sometimes the fantasy is easier to cope with. It is difficult, and it is frightening, and you start to look at other loved ones and think that they too will no longer be there one day. Be strong and know that no one can take away your cherished memories or your familiar closeness with them, no matter what the distance is between you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sweet Jane 61 Posted November 10, 2005 Author Report Share Posted November 10, 2005 Sue...thanks for the sweet thoughts. Good to see a post from you...I miss you girl!! PM me sometime! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edna Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 Did this ever happen to you...? after losing somebody you love so much, during the first months you think "Oh, I know, I´ll send her/him an e-mail" or "Now my cell phone has a good battery so I´ll call", etc... and in less than one second you realise that wasn´t the problem...? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
invisible_r Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 i don;t know whether the combination of this and the poem by steel2velvet affected me in some weird way, but i had an aweful nightmare about my dad and stepmom, one of them (i get confused as to which one) had cancer i must have been crying in my sleep. maybe it's cause I ate late... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Earth-Angel Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 I have dreams about my grandparents all the time. In most of them, I am a little girl again and I am trying to keep them alive by doing certain things but I just can't because I get too tired or I keep falling or getting lost and I wake up in a panic and sweating. I've been told it is quite normal to have these sorts of dreams, that they are unconcious guilt about a death and thinking there was something you could have done to prevent it. ((((Rach)))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Foxy Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 Talking about things like this has probably brought some stuff to the front of your mind, which carried over into dream time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kevin Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 Jane, that was beautiful . I lost my father 5 years ago , and still , don't think I've been able to put the words to what I feel , yet . I always loved this song by U2 : Album: The Joshua Tree : Red Hill Mining Town From father to son The blood runs thin See faces frozen still Against the wind The seam is split The coal face cracked The lines are long There's no going back Through hands of steel And heart of stone Our labour day Has come and gone Yeah you leave me holding on In Red Hill Town See lights go down, I'm... Hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to I'm still waiting I'm hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to The glass is cut The bottle run dry Our love runs cold In the caverns of the night We're wounded by fear Injured in doubt I can lose myself You I can't live without Yeah you keep me holding on In Red Hill Town See the lights go down on I'm hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to I'm still waiting Hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to Hold on to We'll scorch the earth Set fire to the sky We stoop so low to reach so high A link is lost The chain undone We wait all day For night to come And it comes Like a hunter child I'm hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to I'm still waiting I'm hanging on You're all that's left to hold on to Love...slowly stripped away Love...has seen its better day Hanging on The lights go out on Red Hill The lights go down on Red Hill Lights go down on Red Hill town The lights go down on Red Hill Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
invisible_r Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 aww thanks I must admit, I do worry about my dad because he is old, well, relative to other people's dad of the same age as me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Levis Posted November 11, 2005 Report Share Posted November 11, 2005 This is the second 'all-things-must-pass' reference I'm seeing here today. And to think I was thinking (and bracing) myself for something similar a few minutes ago at the dinner table and trying to keep my eyes dry. Telepathy I tell you. Also, it's Friday. Friday's try to bring me down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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