PunkAndEmoFan

Wait. No "Don't Stop Believin'"? Man, I thought everybody knew that song!

This song has meant a lot to me over time depending on what I've gone through. Right now, to me, it's about a girl who falls in love with her gay best friend and deals with it by rationalizing that if they experimented, nothing good would come of it. "Am I more than you bargained for yet?" refers to how she's afraid her new feelings will be too much for the friendship to bear, as though she's asking hesitantly if it's wrong. "I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear" refers to how she tells him she only loves him as a friend because she doesn't want to scare him off. "'Cause that's just who I am this week" refers to how the deep friendship she always feels for him occasionally develops lust alongside it, which always goes away and comes back yet isn't constant (friendship one week, lust the next). "Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum" - To "lie" with somebody is often used as a euphemism for sex, and a mausoleum is used for burial. That said, she is acknowledging that to make any more than a friendship of the situation could very well kill the friendship or come close to it; the "mausoleum" could also represent regret, bitterness, or guilt she would feel if anything came of her feelings and went wrong. "I'm just a notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song" refers to what might happen outside their friendship if they did have an encounter - while she'd probably just be an experimental incident to him (a "notch in [his] bedpost"), he'd mean much more to her ("a line in [her] song"). "Drop a heart, break a name" represents her current lose-lose situation; her heart is being "dropped" knowing they can't be together, but at the same time, one of the reasons they're such good friends is that she trusts him in part because he's gay and if he wasn't, he'd be losing part of his identity that endeared him to her in the first place ("break[ing]" his "name"). "We're always sleeping in and sleeping for the wrong team" is an obvious allusion to his orientation (while not morally wrong, he is on "the wrong team" if she wants to be with him) and more significantly her misplaced feelings for him. "We're going down, down in an earlier round / And sugar, we're going down swinging" - She had no idea she'd fall in love with him, let alone this fast; to "go down swinging" means to keep fighting for a cause despite obvious futility (perhaps she continues to flirt and make her feelings known?). "I'll be your number one with a bullet" alludes to her extremely close friendship with him - he really is her "number one with a bullet," the best friend she always goes to for advice etc. - something she doesn't want to lose. "A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it" seems to symbolize she knows she is wrong in believing they could ever be together or that she could change him - she knows she isn't God - so she wants to be rid of the feelings ("cock it and pull it" as though shooting them down; this line could also mean the feelings are hurting her). "Is this more than you bargained for yet?" refers to the fact that, although he's okay with her flirting, she doesn't want to cross a line and tries to be cautious about it. "Oh, don't mind me, I'm watching you two from the closet, wishing to be the friction in your jeans" - This is a reference to the way she jokes around with the guy ("don't mind me" is meant to sound sarcastic and silly) about her feelings under the guise of only loving him as a friend. This could also be a metaphor for how wrong/dirty she thinks her feelings are (as if she's somehow betraying him by falling for him despite his orientation), because watching someone from a closet has a very creepy, stalkerlike aura about it. "Isn't it messed up, how I'm just dying to be him?" is a continuation of the sarcastic/joking motif -- as in, "Isn't it funny?" Finally, the echoing of "Take aim at myself, take back what you said" over the final choruses seems to symbolize her, and perhaps his, reconciliation with her feelings.