Straight from the heart...

[AMES22]

For anyone out there who has tried to say the right things and only messed it up, this poem is for you. I know what it's like to want to tell someone every good, loving thing you have to say to them; yet it always seems easier to say things that end up hurting them or just the wrong things in general. I titled the poem "Filter" because i sometimes wish i had one to filter the things that are in my head and heart before i let them come out of my mouth. Let me know if my poem is something you can relate too, or just toss me some constructive comments. Thanks, guys!

Filter

I never say what I mean but I mean what I say

When I ask you to stay for just one more day

On the page of this book with that ominous look

Of mischief and disguise in those beautiful eyes

A picture is worth a thousand feelings

You tell me I should when you know I?m no good

At letting myself put this guise on the shelf

And pouring my heart from ending to start

Onto pavement, awaiting, the words I?m debating

I never could decide what to say

I?m so caught and tangled in what has been mangled

That I don?t seem to see what?s been given to me

A gentle heart to look over and protect from exposure

And all I ever do is suffocate you

Time and time again

I need time to show you all that I owe you

And there are risks that I take and so much at stake

When I let you walk away mad while I?m acting glad

But this painted on smile won?t last me a mile

If you aren?t the motor that keeps me running

I?m not happy when you?re gone but I know that it?s wrong

To ask so much in return when it?s always my only one that I burn

And I take everything out on you, though it?s not what I aim to do

I just want to make things right and be there at night

When the moon is not enough to help you fall asleep

So if my words weave a maze that goes on for days

Just remember that what I want you to hear isn?t always so clear

And no matter what I say I might not mean it that way

Because what I want to get out are the words ?You should never doubt?

That I love you above all and everything??

And this story has no happy ending cuz I?m no good at pretending

That I?m okay without you around, because I have found

That no matter what I do or what places I run to

I?ll always be just half of me

Without all of you