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For anyone out there who has tried to say the right things and only messed it up, this poem is for you. I know what it's like to want to tell someone every good, loving thing you have to say to them; yet it always seems easier to say things that end up hurting them or just the wrong things in general. I titled the poem "Filter" because i sometimes wish i had one to filter the things that are in my head and heart before i let them come out of my mouth. Let me know if my poem is something you can relate too, or just toss me some constructive comments. Thanks, guys! Filter I never say what I mean but I mean what I say When I ask you to stay for just one more day On the page of this book with that ominous look Of mischief and disguise in those beautiful eyes A picture is worth a thousand feelings You tell me I should when you know I?m no good At letting myself put this guise on the shelf And pouring my heart from ending to start Onto pavement, awaiting, the words I?m debating I never could decide what to say I?m so caught and tangled in what has been mangled That I don?t seem to see what?s been given to me A gentle heart to look over and protect from exposure And all I ever do is suffocate you Time and time again I need time to show you all that I owe you And there are risks that I take and so much at stake When I let you walk away mad while I?m acting glad But this painted on smile won?t last me a mile If you aren?t the motor that keeps me running I?m not happy when you?re gone but I know that it?s wrong To ask so much in return when it?s always my only one that I burn And I take everything out on you, though it?s not what I aim to do I just want to make things right and be there at night When the moon is not enough to help you fall asleep So if my words weave a maze that goes on for days Just remember that what I want you to hear isn?t always so clear And no matter what I say I might not mean it that way Because what I want to get out are the words ?You should never doubt? That I love you above all and everything?? And this story has no happy ending cuz I?m no good at pretending That I?m okay without you around, because I have found That no matter what I do or what places I run to I?ll always be just half of me Without all of you

I don't think this is one of my better works, but i am open to any opinions/suggestions. It always helps me to become a better writer! Thanks! Up is Down Let?s start this conversation off right I?m not hunting for another fight Despite this angry glare I can?t deny that I still care I?d argue with my shadow Over things that don?t really matter But I can?t seem to bring myself To take the important stuff off the shelf And explain to you what I really mean So the truth has yet to be seen This is no liar?s tale But I?m not always honest I?ll tell you yes when I mean no When I need you to stay I?ll say go My up is down And your sky is my ground Listen to what I have to say But think of it another way Cuz this is no liar?s tale But you know I never tell the truth I dial your number, sometimes just to say hi But once I hear your voice I don?t wanna say goodbye And I go on with meaningless chat About alot of this and a little of that It?s just my way of stalling time Til I find the guts to say what?s on my mind But I never do And I?m so hard on you Though, I swear, I never mean to be Don?t forget all the times I?ve said That you were every thought inside my head I may neglect to mention That I suffer from this tension That being apart from you has caused And I know sometimes I just need to pause Take the time out to just remember That you really deserve so much better Than what I have become for you This is no liar?s tale But I?m not always honest I?ll tell you yes when I mean no When I need you to stay I?ll say go My up is down And your sky is my ground Listen to what I have to say But think of it another way Cuz this is no liar?s tale But you know I never tell the truth Everything I used to say I?ll say it in a different way Just to keep your eyes on me So you can finally see You are my everything And I promise not to slip up I promise not to trip up I don?t wanna screw up Anymore And though this is no liar?s tale I?m not always honest And I?ll say yes when I mean no When I need you to stay I?ll say go But you should know I never tell the truth So please don?t give up on me Just don?t give up on me This time

I started writing my songs and poems with more of a punk and Emo feel...here is the first one I wrote - in a very angry mood. My best stuff comes out when im pissed...go figure. Take Off Your Sunglasses When You Talk to Me Am I too much for you to handle? Cuz you don?t look at me the same I feel like a damaged box, a broken light bulb Im not good enough anymore Or so I?ve been told By the voices in my head and the actions that you take You make me feel like every word I?ve ever said Has been a huge mistake I let you run this town and my little world Silly me, believing in you and what we had I wish you had told me you were highly skilled In twisting knives and telling lies But I have my own talents And they go as follows I make an excellent doormat And an even better dart board So bring on the worst Cuz I can handle it like a pro And I?m so good at what I do But I have to admit, not as good as you Cuz? I?m so good At letting you make me feel this bad And I?m so good At making myself this mad I?m so good At watching you walk away I?m a regular Jack of All trades But one thing you got me beat at You?re so good, you?re so good At letting me down and making me come back You leave me hanging And I hang myself for you Holding on to everything you ever say I give in to the way this makes me feel I give you everything you never have to ask for And you hold me up just to tear me apart I spend all my time trying to adjust my heart To make it beat in tune with your every promise And you leave them all un-kept Then blame me for our down-fall So I must remind myself? I?m so good At letting you make me feel this bad And I?m so good At making myself this mad I?m so good At watching you walk away I?m a regular Jack of All trades But one thing you got me beat at You?re so good, you?re so good At letting me down and making me come back I?m the best at what I do, giving far to much to you You stomp on me with your broken glass boots But I?ll never cry ?uncle? and I?ll never ask for more I?ll never ask for more than what you give And you?ll never give me more than zero So let me play the villain and someone else can be your hero I love having my fifteen minutes of fame in your world But my time always ends when your random knight rides in You?ll say I hold you back and get in the way I?m no longer the one that saves the day And you tell me your life is formed around my feelings That?s so funny, because you got me so convinced I don?t deserve to have those on any subject, mostly you So beat me up and bruise my face Scold me for holding a grudge and throwing fits And I?ll let you, Angel, ride off with your knight Right over me and my broken heart, busted to bits Can I just ask, I know you?ll want me to beg Will you just finish me off? And I?ll tell myself?. I?m so good At letting you make me feel bad And I?m so good At making myself this sad I?m so good At watching you walk away I?m a regular Jack of All trades But one thing you got me beat at You?re so good, you?re so good At letting me down and making me come back I?m so [bleep] good at what I do I?d sacrifice my life for you But you never told me you were so highly skilled At twisting knives and telling lies Maybe someday you could teach me your ways And I?ll try them out on you Cuz [bleep] me over seems to be the latest craze So twist the knife that ends my life And tell the lies that drown my eyes Cuz you know I?ll come back for more I always come back for more Just watch your back this time?.

So I'm the new kid. I've been looking for a place to post my stuff. I write alot of poems and song lyrics...all personal stuff that somehow means something to me, as most songs do for most people. So here is y initiation piece...it's a poem called "Losing Sleep". Let me know what you think, por favor! Losing Sleep :: Have I ever said I loved you in a song Well just wait, cuz it won?t be long And I?ll take that step into forever You?ll tell me that it?s now or never Just don?t hold your breath Because you know how I?m never on time Who reads those scribbles on the walls In all those dirty bathroom stalls Well if my mind were those toilet doors All of the graffiti messages would be yours And they would be telling me to call you Because you miss the way I make you laugh I can?t ever crumple a paper without thinking Maybe I?d say that line aloud If I were drinking But I wonder why I wait for that Those nights when I wear my drinking hat And call you from a quiet corner To say the things you should hear everyday My mind never stops at night Wondering if you?d ever fight To know what it is that runs through it When I have ten drinks and then take a hit My answer would be so simple But please don?t ask me to explain The drive home is always too long So I sing along to every song Thinking of you with every chorus Trying to recall what came before us What was it like to be just me Before I found my missing piece Confidence never looked good on me Stable is something I?ll never be But you suit me just right And even when we fight I know you?re still the best part of me And I?m good at what I do because of you Don?t rush yourself into the future That would make a tear that I can?t suture But I promise I?ll let you go your own way I?m just not ready to let you go today Give me five more minutes, please Of that precious time that?s no longer mine Leave me something in your smile To carry with me for just a while Because I just can?t handle missing you Without you here I haven?t got a clue As to where my place should be I?m just going through the motions I guess I should say I love you in a song Write the words down before I say them wrong I?m just afraid it doesn?t matter anymore And I can feel you turning towards the door Maybe I can get it all out before you go Just don?t make me promises you can?t keep A broken heart full of scars and pain Gets me more than any empty words can gain And a bad taste in my mouth is so much better Than watching you try to keep it all together When you know you are only painting a picture Of what you think I want to see In the end I?ll think of this And wonder what it is I really miss Though my memories won?t get me very far I?m willing to collect another scar If it means bringing you back to me There?s nothing I won?t try