scott Posted August 31, 2008 Report Share Posted August 31, 2008 (edited) Here's a long one it was stream of consciousness and rather quickly typed so there are a few spelling and grammatical errors I realize they might make me look a little ignorant or lazy but I think they contribute to a sense of urgency. world traveler banging down a backway door bangin' for weed pacifier tried to pry him off big mouth offers ultimate answer that 200 hundred bag paid half for by angry banger is nothin' but ricky fitz american beauty shamanism if bag is expensive if bag is perfect if bag is out of ordinary then ingesting will result in fine dining christ outta the ball park intoxication. But it's all in the marketing! your monetary funds when spent show what you want outta life which create reality kevin spacey's wanna buy happiness so that's what they sink their money in to and that's what they get total bliss right before gunshot to the back of the cranium but isn't it easier to skip that middleman ricky fittz money eater and just decide to be happy pick a new medium a new cashflow hole a new happiness one a little more permanent that a c-note dropped on three days months of enjoyment more bang for your buck. NO I'm wrong everyhing I said was wrong this tye-dye (homemade) mother f****r I've never lived on my own (minus these past three years/ (perhaps outweighing you?) this 19 year old who invited this guy ignoramus bullsh*tter my fashion is obviously outta wack I should be wearin' the latest polo's and dudebro shortts baaaaaah baaaaah black sheep have you any life experience the balkans powder keg franz ferdinand non-scot pop-rock sensation but ww1 trench warfare assassination perhaps a world traveller fat off daddy's dollar *which may be unfair I've got unfair cash in unfair way I just sank it into some speaker's to amplify my voice to be a little more keynote. maybe a mid 90's forgotten soldier not seein' a fellow blue blooded USA troop uniform wearin boyscout club 10 division WAR be gunned down like an insurgent proto-target but seeing genocide destruction of an entire race firsthand upclose having to kill a killer an easy decision at first but probably weighs on the conscience I'm not sure what to assume. cuz it's all assumptions the better-than tho holier 'tude and polo and fancy pants suggests a daddy's boy/man world traveller but that killer chokehold after an ill-planned left hook/jab? I dunno all I know it was pretty unexpected after all, I was the ignorant 19 tyedye outta style non-informed dumb muthaf****r that chokehold after an argument the ability to see infinity (NO WE CAN'T) said large man (YES WE CAN) ignorant lack o style for miles and miles who invited this guy muthaf****r. but we can it's perceived by the flat 2d mario brothers window pane image that we all witness when we look up at the sky not a hall of mirrors flat infinity sure we can't comprehend it (point agreed fashionable man) but we sure can see it. the choke hold that followed a descent into experience do you know mostar? (black star? mos def? talib kweli?) no I don't but evidently it's a place in the balkans (military or daddy's buck?) well no I don't tell me about it "you don't know the world" tell me about mostar "who invited you" I know a bit about the balkans "nothing compared to me" "Never left the country 19 yr old tye dye faux paux" Tell ME do you know the classic form of music that originated from the balkans? DOYOUKNOWTHECLASSICFORMOFMUSICTHATORIGINATEDFROMTHEBALKANS "you don't understand" evidently I do cuz you offer buzzwords and a trip that lasted a bit but don't know the style of music, that carries thru today that reflecs on the desolation the despair of the balkans LISTEN TO ME DO YOU KNOW THE CLASSIC FORM OF MUSIC DO YOU DO YOU KNOW EVERY CULTURE HAS A CONTRIBUTION SPLIT APART TOWER OF BABEL BUT WE ALL HAVE MUSIC MAYBE THAT"S IMPORTANT? no I'm 19 my POV DOA irrelevant I don't have the necesarry travel "explain to me your travel" No, you are tyedyed "well I'm happy to explain to you the balkan singing tradition that sheds a light on the experience of being huddled into one place multiple dozens of ethnic groups squeezed into one area desolation isolation no one to complain to no one to take it out on except the exception the traveling (non-important, til bullet riddled) dignitary no one except the rare ambassador and eachother but that bit of knoweledge is of no use who invited this guy I do not wish to learn I do not wish to share mostar. Now, for that choke hold that's makes me wonder pr*ck, fortunate, sighttseeing son or tortured soul, unwitting participant Sucker Punch cannot stand it I am more than a shirt or age I know about scream singing Looking to the sky "WHY STARS, WHY AM I SO ALONE?" (ironically fitting into twodimensional infinity) Sucker Punch immediate strangulation cannot breathe not fun now I know I need not auto-erotically asphyxiate myself no fantasies won from that endevour. shouts all sides get off trying to shout trying to apologize No need to punch just upset shoulda left this convo long ago but now, I'm into deep and your elbow is too deep into my vocal cords. pulled off ESCAPE climb onto bike cops everywhere not for me but usual downtown nightime silliness but the mind works wonderous things what if what if whatif whatifwhatifwhatifwhatif the guy who brought me "who invited that 19 year old, disobediant, questioning, tye dye mother f****r?" oh that guy what if that guy is in some trouble what if those sirens are not for me but for him Was I defended? Gottta go back I am a coward sucker punch choke out flee shoulda apologized shoulda been more diplomatic discretion is the better part of valor shouldn't of used lefty to hit a guy surprisingly hard in cheek Go back the trip back is faster makes me feel it's the right thing to do THIS IS THE ROAD TO CAMELOT AND PROVIDENCE EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY return told to leave I'm stupid Ask to apologize put up hands down on knees your domain your rules (even if you're wrong) I submit don't hate my comrades zapatos my shoes! just hate me please but come'on forgiveness? SLAM! no no forgiveness here, just strong (much stronger than I) to the eye cortex outta whack I try to resist can't outtta hand STOP! cries a voice no agreement from antagonist but I anagonize too diatribes sermons I commit vile violence it does not give you the right I admit my mistake absoluion graned I returned do the same. No blow to the head knee on ribcage sore from bedspring incident foot on lungs can't breathe when I try to speak against the timing is just right whenever anything poignant is to be uttered the windpipe is crushed "HAHA"(nelson taunt) "You sound like Gullum" your 8 years ago references have a comforting irony to my outdated shirt. irony not seen til now. Let me Go I just want my Dignity I lost my Marcus Aurelius stoicism a long time ago gimme my oedipus hubris please? gimme my pride No my larnyx stomped everyone turns to watch being rubbed out on neighbors front long I am the one who needs to stop I gotta stop. eventually I do I guess and I get to go tear stained bike path I've failed over and over no control on anger none on fate none on hubris none on my mouth clenched fist I lost.. No one to blame but myself. I decided my ideals and cashed in on masochism letters to roommates paper plates strewn It was scream singing all of this about scream singing keep on that primal scream track rightt? Edited September 3, 2008 by Guest Lots of profanity. >:o Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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