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Here's a long one

it was stream of consciousness

and rather quickly typed

so there are a few spelling

and grammatical errors

I realize

they might make me look a little ignorant or lazy

but I think they contribute to a sense of urgency.

world traveler

banging down a backway door

bangin' for weed

pacifier tried to pry him off

big mouth offers

ultimate answer

that 200 hundred bag

paid half for by angry banger

is nothin'

but ricky fitz

american beauty

shamanism

if bag is expensive

if bag is perfect

if bag is out of ordinary

then ingesting

will result in

fine dining

christ

outta the ball park

intoxication.

But it's all in the marketing!

your monetary funds

when spent

show what you want outta life

which create reality

kevin spacey's wanna buy happiness

so that's what they sink their money in to

and that's what they get

total bliss

right before

gunshot to the back of the cranium

but isn't it easier

to skip that middleman ricky fittz money eater

and just decide to be happy

pick a new medium

a new cashflow hole

a new happiness

one a little more permanent

that a c-note dropped on three days

months of enjoyment

more bang for your buck.

NO

I'm wrong

everyhing I said was wrong

this tye-dye (homemade)

mother f****r

I've never lived on my own

(minus these past three years/

(perhaps outweighing you?)

this 19 year old

who invited this guy

ignoramus bullsh*tter

my fashion is obviously outta wack

I should be wearin' the latest polo's and

dudebro

shortts

baaaaaah

baaaaah

black sheep

have you any life experience

the balkans

powder keg

franz ferdinand

non-scot pop-rock sensation

but ww1

trench warfare

assassination

perhaps a world traveller

fat off daddy's dollar

*which may be unfair

I've got unfair cash

in unfair way

I just sank it into some speaker's

to amplify my voice

to be a little more keynote.

maybe a mid 90's forgotten soldier

not seein' a fellow blue blooded

USA

troop uniform wearin

boyscout

club 10

division

WAR

be gunned down like an insurgent proto-target

but seeing genocide

destruction of an entire race

firsthand

upclose

having to kill a killer

an easy decision at first

but probably weighs on the conscience

I'm not sure what to assume.

cuz it's all assumptions

the better-than tho

holier

'tude

and polo

and fancy pants

suggests a daddy's boy/man

world traveller

but that killer chokehold

after an ill-planned left hook/jab?

I dunno

all I know

it was pretty unexpected

after all,

I was the ignorant

19

tyedye

outta style

non-informed

dumb muthaf****r

that chokehold

after an argument

the ability to see infinity

(NO WE CAN'T)

said large man

(YES WE CAN)

ignorant lack o style for miles and miles

who invited this guy

muthaf****r.

but we can

it's perceived by the flat

2d mario brothers

window pane

image that we all witness when we look up at the sky

not a hall of mirrors

flat

infinity

sure we can't comprehend it

(point agreed fashionable man)

but we sure can see it.

the choke hold that followed a descent into experience

do you know mostar?

(black star? mos def? talib kweli?)

no I don't

but evidently it's a place in the balkans

(military or daddy's buck?)

well no I don't

tell me about it

"you don't know the world"

tell me about mostar

"who invited you"

I know a bit about the balkans

"nothing compared to me"

"Never left the country 19 yr old

tye dye

faux paux"

Tell ME

do you know the classic form of music that originated from the balkans?

DOYOUKNOWTHECLASSICFORMOFMUSICTHATORIGINATEDFROMTHEBALKANS

"you don't understand"

evidently I do

cuz you offer buzzwords and a trip that lasted a bit

but don't know the style of music, that carries thru today

that reflecs on the desolation

the despair

of the balkans

LISTEN TO ME

DO YOU KNOW

THE CLASSIC FORM OF MUSIC

DO YOU

DO YOU KNOW EVERY CULTURE HAS A CONTRIBUTION

SPLIT APART

TOWER OF BABEL

BUT WE ALL HAVE MUSIC

MAYBE THAT"S IMPORTANT?

no

I'm 19

my POV

DOA

irrelevant

I don't have the necesarry travel

"explain to me your travel"

No, you are tyedyed

"well I'm happy to explain to you

the balkan singing tradition

that sheds a light on the experience

of being huddled into one place

multiple dozens of ethnic groups

squeezed into one area

desolation

isolation

no one to complain to

no one to take it out on

except the exception

the traveling (non-important, til bullet riddled)

dignitary

no one except the rare ambassador and eachother

but that bit of knoweledge is of no use

who invited this guy

I do not wish to learn

I do not wish to share mostar.

Now, for that choke hold

that's makes me wonder

pr*ck, fortunate, sighttseeing son

or tortured soul, unwitting participant

Sucker Punch

cannot stand it

I am more than a shirt

or age

I know about scream singing

Looking to the sky

"WHY STARS, WHY AM I SO ALONE?"

(ironically fitting into twodimensional infinity)

Sucker Punch

immediate strangulation

cannot breathe

not fun

now I know I need not auto-erotically asphyxiate myself

no fantasies won from that endevour.

shouts

all sides

get off

trying to shout

trying to apologize

No need to punch

just upset

shoulda left this convo

long ago

but now,

I'm into deep

and your elbow is too deep into my vocal cords.

pulled off

ESCAPE

climb onto bike

cops everywhere

not for me

but usual downtown nightime silliness

but the mind works wonderous things

what if

what if

whatif

whatifwhatifwhatifwhatif

the guy who brought me

"who invited that 19 year old, disobediant, questioning, tye dye mother f****r?"

oh that guy

what if that guy

is in some trouble

what if those sirens

are not for me

but for him

Was I defended?

Gottta go back

I am a coward

sucker punch

choke out

flee

shoulda apologized

shoulda been more diplomatic

discretion is the better part of valor

shouldn't of used lefty to hit a guy surprisingly hard

in cheek

Go back

the trip back is faster

makes me feel

it's the right thing to do

THIS IS THE ROAD TO CAMELOT

AND PROVIDENCE

EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY

return

told to leave

I'm stupid

Ask to apologize

put up hands

down on knees

your domain

your rules

(even if you're wrong)

I submit

don't hate my comrades

zapatos

my shoes!

just hate me

please

but come'on forgiveness?

SLAM!

no

no forgiveness here, just strong

(much stronger than I)

to the eye

cortex outta whack

I try to resist

can't

outtta hand

STOP!

cries a voice

no agreement from antagonist

but I anagonize too

diatribes

sermons

I commit vile violence

it does not give you the right

I admit my mistake

absoluion graned

I returned

do the same.

No

blow to the head

knee on ribcage

sore from bedspring incident

foot on lungs

can't breathe

when I try to speak

against

the timing is just right

whenever anything poignant is to be uttered

the windpipe is crushed

"HAHA"(nelson taunt)

"You sound like Gullum"

your 8 years ago references

have a comforting irony to

my outdated

shirt.

irony not seen til now.

Let me Go

I just want my Dignity

I lost my Marcus Aurelius stoicism a long time ago

gimme my oedipus hubris

please?

gimme my pride

No

my larnyx stomped

everyone turns to watch

being rubbed out on neighbors front long

I am the one who needs to stop

I gotta stop.

eventually I do

I guess

and I get to go

tear stained bike path

I've failed

over and over

no control on anger

none on fate

none on hubris

none on my mouth

clenched fist

I lost..

No one to blame

but myself.

I decided my ideals

and cashed in on masochism

letters to roommates

paper plates strewn

It was scream singing

all of this about

scream singing

keep on that primal scream track rightt?

Edited by Guest
Lots of profanity. >:o
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