RBB

Here is a poem I wrote the other night that will likely become a song.. I never really was that confident as a boy. I never really felt innocence either. But like a fool marks his x for his ploy. I kinda spelled my future with one word, and that is clearer. I didn’t want to be the first in line. But that’s the way it happened. I never cried all the time. But inside I was often saddened. But now, I try to be happy. To know what I have done to some. I regret nothing and respect some things. I miss being here, feeling the pure. Move into. I’ll just move into myself. I would always wish the smoke would fade. I never dreamed until I was ready. But just as one would disintegrate. My imagination would comfort me. I’m not a law, not a cause, not a rebel. But I will try to prove you wrong. I often waved, but now they revel. Cause I’ll sing a lovely song. But now, I try to be happy. To know what I have done to some. I regret nothing and respect some things. I miss being here, feeling the pure. Move into. I’ll just move into myself. Serenity is tranquility, so they say, so they say. Imagination will penetrate into the best of you. Don’t let the frowns drag you down. Let the laughs just resolve your doubts. Just please try to be happy. To know what I have done to some. I regret nothing and respect some things. I miss being here, feeling the pure. Move into. I’ll just move into myself. Move Into, Move Into… Move into myself. Robert Blackburn

Well I turned on the TV here in Ottawa this morning and saw some downtown footage and it prompted me to write this little blurb about the city... It's called City of Few Truths. City of Few Truths City lights they blind me as I drive to the lookout point. On the way I see things that I’m ashamed of. From the outskirts of town I see its promise. But inside is where dreams are broken. Where men and boys whose hopes have died. If the streets could talk, they would be screaming at you. The lies are false; it’s our minds that separate the truth. Downtown is when your heart beats the fastest. Amidst the traffic, you feel it burning through you. That’s the feeling of their eyes, opening wide. And the devil, surfaces in you. Sometimes when I travel, I can’t bare but to just look at the road. Cause from side to side, my mind it cries inside. And it hurts to see their faces. They couldn’t find, what they were looking for. How can we hide away, shy away from these feelings? If you would listen to their voices, they would be screaming at you. The lies are false, it’s our minds that separate the truth. Downtown is when your heart beats the fastest. Amidst the traffic you feel it burning through you. That’s the feeling of their eyes, opening wide. And the devil, surfaces in you. Through the red light district is a sea of lost souls. In the heart of the suburbs is where the lying hurts the most. So hurry up now, they’re fading, we’re fading and waiting for the truth….. Downtown is when your heart beats the fastest. Amidst the traffic you feel it burning through you. That’s the feeling of their eyes, opening wide. And the devil, surfaces in you. Please let me know what you think.

I walk up to the driveway and stumble to the door. The arms on my watch, one at 12, one at 4. So what I was just a little early to obtain my reward. Instead of hugs and kisses it was me being ignored. So I knocked again, then I looked through the window. There you two were, just as I thought. What did I lose while I was gone? I came back to town to steal your heart. I wonder if I’ll getaway, never return so my settings change. I wonder why I can’t leave this place. I hope someday you can see my face. And smile and wonder if things would be the same. I risked my life with your love on the line. I’d do it again time after time. What’s the deal here, did you accept his risk or reward. Do I belong here, or am I another fool here at your door. So I turned around, and it pierced me like never before. The warmth of your halo was instead from your thorns… What did I lose while I was gone? I came back to town to steal your heart. I wonder if I’ll getaway, never return so my settings change. I wonder why I can’t leave this place. I hope someday you can see my face. And smile and wonder if things would be the same. You can’t change this; you have made a big mistake. You can’t replace me; I know you’ll never be the same. I know you’ll see this as I leave your door and walk away. Never, Never, will you put me through this again. What did I lose while I was gone? I came back to town to steal your heart. I wonder if I’ll getaway, never return so my settings change. I wonder why I can’t leave this place. I hope someday you can see my face. And smile and wonder if things would be the same.

This song or piece is for my sister... Her house burned down the other night and as well her fathers a few months ago. I too have been in this position and it builds character and there is positive in it, this is how it goes. V1 I wander away once again into a mind full of my own subliminal thoughts. Revoking this and that towards the moment where I lost it all. In my eyes you can see this flame, bright and burning’ tall but is it the same.. My burning desire I set the flame higher even though it took this from me. Chorus I stay at home tonight think of all those ashes that could be me. After awhile I sorta smile and forget for a while all of those empty everything’s. A glimmer of hope, it brightens the sky and this light it shines down on me. The flames inside will never die and that will keep me alive. V2 A decade later, now the flames I hated return to entice my fears. Losing a building, losing my childhood has once again placed me here. In your eyes you can see this flame, bright and burning tall but is it the same. Your burning desire, you set se your flame higher and now you’re just like me. Chorus I stay at home tonight and remind my self that you are okay. I’m happy inside to know that you’re still with me. A glimmer of hope, it brightens the sky and this light it shines down on us. These flames inside us will never die and that will bring us up. Pre Bridge It will bring us up…. And will cool it down… You’ll never know…. For me this fire it set my life apart. For you it’s the same so don’t fear the complaints that will eventually heat and then spark. Bridge Don’t ignite the blaze anymore; don’t feel the hate that you did before. It will change you, but you have to believe it. Maybe we get to keep what we lost; we made it alive is that all that we want. I survived it; it’s in my mind so that I can love what I have… gained……. Chorus Something’s are etched in your memory, other things they’re just constantly reminding me. But I know they’ll help me grow and widen my vision to see. That a glimmer of hope, it brightens the sky and this light it shines down on me These flames inside us will never die and I’ll cherish those… empty every things… ROBERT BLACKBURN

Well things with a lady friend in I whom I knew for years have went sour.. Here's a product from it's demise, it sucks I mean the demise but it's not the end of the world. It’s been too long and you’ve been play with a stacked deck. I worked too hard to be shown this lack of respect. So I threw my cards down, and folded from the table. Walked away empty handed with no earnings left to lable. It was something that had to be done. You gotta know when to stay and know when to run. So next time when we play you bring your best game. And I’ll bring mine. It’s been so long but yet I’ll never forget. You worked so hard to be shown this lack of respect. So I picked up your cards, and placed them on the table. Stayed right there, and you were willing and able. It was something that had to be done. You gotta know when to stay and know when to run. So next time when we play you bring your best game. And I’ll bring mine. 52 cards, 4 clean suits. A million lies, but only one truth. So many times, we play we lose. We’re dealt are cards, we do not choose. Up the river, down the line. We rank our dollars over lives. So live not to be cheater. I live now, but don’t believe her. It was something that had to be done. You gotta know when to stay and know when to run. So next time when we play you bring your best game. And I’ll bring mine. RBB

How come, I feel a little closer, even if we grow apart? Why is it that you need me, now that I’ve cleared you out of my heart? Where were you, when I felt like I had no one. When will you, see that I will always love you? Days went by, with you on my mind All I know, is that you didn’t know what I was. But now, you’re back and my head is spinning. I guess it’s back to square one. How come, it had to get this far, or get this close? Why is it, that only my and you have to know. Where were you, when I felt like I had no one. When will you, see that I will always love you. Days went by, with you on my mind All I know, is that you didn’t know what I was. But now, you’re back and my head is spinning. I guess it’s back to square one. Back to the drawing board, I felt I left this game. Now I’m back for more, par feelings of shame. I wonder, I wonder, will things just go my way. Or maybe, just maybe, things will never change. But who knows... maybe you? Days went by, with you on my mind All I know, is that you didn’t know what I was. But now, you’re back and my head is spinning. I guess it’s back to square one. RBB

Hey guys a new one for yas \ Just fill this cup to the brim with my regrets. Let me drink my thoughts down till the warmth fills my chest. Forget all the pain, all the times I did you wrong. Remember all the times where my words formed a song. Don’t expect everything to change all at once. Said my father to me as he looked at the sun. Life is nothing but a world of your own. You choose your path as it leads to someone. How hard can it be to forget those long nights. Why can’t you see that this feels so right. Maybe it’s due to something that I said. Or maybe all along it was all in my head. I’ll sit alone and lets these thoughts bring me down. Until I hear something, a subtle sorta sound. Ringing in my ears as I say in my bed. It’s you on the phone, helping me instead. Of turning back, and forgetting about me. You always knew how I felt we could be. Life is nothing but a world of my own. I choose my path as it lead to someone. I knew that you’d would never forget those long nights. Maybe you see that this just feels so right. Just maybe, it’s due, to something that I said. Or maybe all along it was what you wanted. But right now I have to plan ahead. Move a step forward as I devise my plan. Cause it’s going to be hard to forget all the pain. I feel so much but will the outcome be the same So.. I’m going to ask you, one on one. If I choose this path will you be my someone. I’m thankful to you, for all the long nights. All the subtle details you seem to get right. Is it due to something I said.. Maybe all along it was what you wanted….. RBB

So it’s raining again, I can feel it again. My mood brings it again, I feel like believing again. But I know that’s wrong. So I walk home again, cause I can feel it again. Something brings it again. I feel like trying again. But I don’t know, I should move along. Maybe it’s all in my head, or maybe it’s a game. I should start again, or forget it ever happened. I sometimes want to let go onto something that didn’t exist. But now I have to understand nothing ever comes from it. She’s flirting again, so I will feel it again. My heart feels it again, I feel like believing again. But it just can’t be wrong. I’m easing the pain again, cause I can feel it again. It’s triggered again, I feel like trying again. But I don’t know, I should move along. Maybe it’s all in my head, or maybe it’s a game. I should start again, or forget it ever happened. I sometimes want to let go onto something that didn’t exist. But now I have to understand nothing ever comes from it. I just wish that things were different. So that things can now be mentioned. How I always loved you. You didn’t know but it’s true. Somedays I want to see you. Others I can’t believe you. I can’t change what I feel. But I can cope, and now heal. Maybe it’s all in my head, or maybe it’s a game. I should start again, or forget it ever happened. I sometimes want to let go onto something that didn’t exist. But now I have to understand nothing ever comes from it.

It’s four in the morn and I’ve got so much on my mind A case of cold feet, for the world to define Easy going, tempted by the wholeness inside Catchy with this rhythm, that I can’t confide I’ll try, it’ll be hard to explain. When you’re not around I feel me wash away. One tear can bring more, or one laugh could restore. Either way I’m a sucker always begging for more. Silent cries, that you’ll never find Separate the verbs as you read the lines Remotely controlled, a new type of ride Broken yet standing, grasping the time I’ll try, it’ll be hard to explain. When you’re not around I feel me wash away. One tear can bring more, or one laugh could restore. Either way I’m a sucker always begging for more. On wish upon a star, one life to be scarred. One hope that gives me more, one time we close the door. Two hearts locked in a cell, changed plans, me by myself. Single file, don’t rush the line, just wait, I’ll see my time. I’ll try, it’ll be hard to explain. When you’re not around I feel me wash away. One tear can bring more, or one laugh could restore. Either way I’m a sucker always begging for more.

Thanks.. I had some family things in mind so I put them to paper. It's going to music very soon, I'll let you know when it is.....

Looking back to the times that I’ve expired. I know that all the trouble was worth all the while. Though I try to deny all the good times. I’m just sitting here wishing that I could rewind. Just thinking back to Sundays. Where we’d sit at home and play in the yard. Those were the fun days. When we could tell the finish from the start. Things were different but they never pulled us apart. So I think back to Sundays. They bring a smile to my heart. When we were younger we used to fish by the lake. I had no patience, but you had just what it would take. Now I notice although my today isn’t yesterday. You’re much smarter, but there’s one thing that won’t change. Just thinking back to Mondays. When we’d watch TV after school. Those were the hard days. When we’d always try to break the rules. Things are different, but we knew what we’re going through. So I think back to Mondays. The moments were always true. So I’ve grown up carried on, and things have changed while I’ve been gone. I can see you two are growing older, more weight on both your shoulders. But I know that your not alone, cause our brotherly bond will always grow. Just thinking back to childhood. When all that we’d do was laugh. Those were the fun days. We knew our family was all we had. Sure things were different, but we didn’t cry, or just be sad. So I think back to Sundays. I wish that I could go back.

I left a note under your pillow. A mark on your bedpost. I left a scar on your heart. And some gum on your nightstand. I left my shoes in your closet. And a CD on your table. I left my hat in the driveway. And some love for you to hold onto. The note read…. Things are really crazy. I have to leave so just maybe. Things can cool down and look up from here. Maybe things will change, maybe next year. I left my book on your carpet. A sock in your suitcase. I left my soul in a bottle. And that picture in your doorway. I left my shirt on your dresser. A picture on your mantle. I left my ring on your bed. And some love for you to hold onto. The note read…. Things are really hectic. I have to leave so don’t forget this. I always carry something here. Maybe things will change, maybe next year. So as I walk away. I leave nothing behind. As my dad would say. You have to give things a try. Even if I slip and fall. I get back up and carry on. I left that note under your pillow. So you can read it…. The note read…. Things are always changing. So my life needs rearranging. I can’t always walk around this fear. Maybe things will change, maybe things will change, maybe next year. RBB

Actually Brad I sorta did, but didn't at the same time.. It's weird, my summer was a little weird so I stepped away from writing for a while so I wouldn't bring up negativity. Now I can look back and understand..

Green Day puts on the best show you can think of, I've seen two of their concerts, one on May 2nd in Quebec City along with My Chemical Romance, and then again on Labour Day with Jimmy Eat World. Green Day puts on a great mixture of everything and the crowd is constantly involved. And also MC and JEW were very good as well.

Hey guys nice layout long time no visit, so I thought I'd let you guys read some new stuff, nothing special.. but here you go. Go On Forever The sun shines, and the birds flutter. Under the sky there’s a young lover. Calling out to someone, as he’s to leave. A nightmare that started disguised as a dream. His thoughts stir, he starts laughing. Can’t believe that all this is happening. He sets all his own feelings. Defines all his own visions and meanings. Times can go on forever. Or they’re lost all together. So let’s never sever and always remember. Our hearts will beat forever, in sync with one another. So let’s never sever and always remember. The moon shines, black swallows the sky. On the ground is where memories lie. Calling out, for the light to arrive. A true friend, for you to confide. Times can go on forever. Or they’re lost all together. So let’s never sever and always remember. Our hearts will beat forever, in sync with one another. So let’s never sever and always remember. I don’t care about the lies, they just point to the truth. It’s nested deep inside, somewhere down inside of you. Let’s reach the same level, I need the answer so can settle. All the things that live in me, all the uncertainty. Things will never change, I will still remain. A friend that’s there to give a hand. Someone who can understand. Honestly honesty is something that you have. I’ve seen so many times, but why must you make me feel like this? Times can go on forever. Or they’re lost all together. So let’s never sever and always remember. Our hearts will beat forever, in sync with one another. So let’s never sever and always remember.